~Major Arcana~Judgement |
You're Struck By Lightning08/17/2006 - 2:38 a.m. Ok, this is going to be one of those Good News/Bad News entries... The good: G is still the most wonderful man I've ever met. Cares about me, I care about him....we're not 'together' but we're just seeing where it goes right now...I'm thinking good happy positive thoughts...would you think them too please? The bad: Still don't have real job yet. The good: I will soon though. The bad: Miss M made a mistake 2 weeks ago of going home with someone(not G) and when she said 'no' that person didn't stop...even though she said it seven times. The good: I told G what happened even though I was sure he'd hate me, but he didn't so he says. He says that it wasn't my fault because even though I originally consented, because we're not an item, he can't get mad at me because I did. He was upset that I was raped though. The bad: It was an acquaintance of his. Probably doesn't know him too well but he knows him...friend of a friend kind of thing. The good: I'm getting over it. The bad: My own mother says that it was my fault. And the guy who did it is going around saying that I was acting like a slut that night which I wasn't since 5 minutes after I walked in the door I told him he wasn't getting lucky. The good: No one buys his story. The bad: I still feel guilty though. And I didn't report it and now it's too late. The good: I spent 7 hours talking to G at his kitchen table a few weeks ago and the more we talk the more I fall. The bad: I'm scared that this won't work out for whatever reason. The good: He accepts me for me and I accept him for him..faults and all. There's absolutely nothing I can't tell him. The good: I'll probably get to spend Saturday with him talking again. The bad: Saturday seems like a far way away. The good: My cold/allergy is almost gone. The bad: I'm on the rag for the second time in 3 weeks. And that's it in a nutshell... Oh and D if you're reading this??? Go away. You're nothing to me anymore. Ok? |
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